The Motive Behind Theresa May and Brexit is ...God

The motive around Theresa May and her being as stubborn as shit sticking to a blanket when it comes to Brexit and turning the UK into a a dystopian dictatorship is her belief in a God. She believes she is acting out the will of God, something that does not exist in reality.

source:
https://www.independent.co.uk/news/uk/politics/theresa-may-reveals-how-her-faith-in-god-makes-her-certain-she-is-doing-the-right-thing-a7442616.html

What have we learned and seen in history ? Many people were killed and executed and still today over certain beliefs on the existence of this magical sky wizard... ISIS the CIA constructed(political motive to gain support against Communism in 1970s, freedom fighters for religion apparently) religious extremist group are professionals at it. Religious beliefs are open to interpretation , which means lest say there is a page in the Bible, 100 people read it, of that 100 people, they have a different perception of what is written on that page. The text is ambiguous, and people who believe in a god, often say that the text means this and that because God told them that it is this and that.

Now it makes sense that what I have been feeling like that the government of the UK has taken the role of abusing me from my abusive parents who abused me because they believed they were right in God's eyes. They believed it was right to perform forced surgery on me when born with both gender organs, then to raise me up in the gender they believed God wanted when my mind was clearly the opposite gender to what bits I had left between my legs. 

It was a hard life and I was so glad to leave their home and live on the opposite hemisphere of the planet where I could focus in getting well, preparing for surgery and have my surgery and get the fuck on with my life. However things looked good until I decided to ask an artist on deviant art (who did intersexed characters) for some help advice and so on, since I felt I was not getting enough help and support professionally here in the UK... all hell broke loose, got accused for being a stalker, I lashed back at her which was my biggest mistake, which that reinforced her beliefs about me, and I ended up being banned here and there, and she participated in abusing me by adding content about me on the internet tabloid called encyclopaedia dramatica. This lead me to attempt suicide by downing hordes of random pills and medicines... and today I might be suffering kidney issues from that, but I hope that the readings were just stress related. Because of the suicide attempt , my surgery was DELAYED for over 5 years +

I need to get the surgery done soon, as my back which I broke from jumping out of the window like the doctor who put all the pieces back together again, and said it was impossible that I could walk and move my legs , mentioned that I could possibly degrade in mobility as a grew older. I can already see the effects of that, as I need a walking stick for moving around outside of the flat.

Now I had gone over that, and surgery was back on the cards for me, where I had to focus on getting some pre-surgery prerequisites done and within a year surgery was possible. The doctor even said there had been a lot of tissue removed when the forced surgery was done after a month I had been born, the surgery would be a challenge, since I was left only with a micro-penis and the results would not be perfect... but I would appear to have my body aligned with the gender of my mind, and lesbian relationships would be the best, as not many penises would be able to fit in... unless they have a micro penis...

Then when things seemed to be moving forward, the DWP decided to move the goal posts , instead of waiting for me to come back to them after my surgery to let them know about the change in circumstances and get re-evaluated as I would have my surgery done, and much of my mental wellbeing would have being improved on that... but would still have the mobility issue of my back deteriorating slowly. They jumped the gun evaluated me and cut my benefits which I live on to get me through this difficult processes. Then now they also want to evaluate and cut me of PIP which I rely on to get taxies here and there to the Art Studio and back home, so that I would loose my independence and stay stuck in my flat... This has given me extreme distress, anxiety and depression, that my blood test readings came out abnormal and of bad health, that there is a possibility of kidney failure.. I am just hoping it is stress only. As well as high blood pressure. This is all the DWP's doing... I am being culled for Brexit and Trident...

The abuse has moved away from my parents to the British Tory Government. It feels so strangely odd that It feels like my parents are controlling the government , which is obsurd ... but the way it is going it just feels like that. I think you would feel the same way if you had been abused, moved to another part of the planet so you could get on with your life without any bullshit , then the bullshit feels like it has followed and stalked you to make your life hell in your new home.

I had nightmares of this future which is now becoming present, Then I would wake up and dismiss it as being part of the PTSD ... now it is on the headlines todays newspaper.

The thing that everyone does to harm me is all done in the belief and the name of God... which is why I can't stand theism and religion.

please help me

I live in UK and suffer from PTSD from abusive childhood and a rape experience. I have a broken back,from attempted suicide and recently live on ESA and PIP from the DWP in UK. I am in the process of getting gender surgery done, as I am Intersexed, and parents a month after was was forced into the gender what they wanted me to be. In order to get surgery done I needed be mentally stable, and was hoping to start off with surgery next year once I have met health objectives and requirements to qualify for surgery like focusing on quitting smoking etc, so the surgery can be successful. The surgeon mentioned that I have a few complications because of the small amount of tissue I have remaining down there, as well as the risks I have with a broken back, which issues could arise because of the broken back.  I had been planning to focus on this, before anything else, requires a lot of thinking and planning, and the surgery in itself is a big thing because of the possibilities of things going wrong. 
I have PTSD from past traumas of attempted suicides of my parent's religious beliefs in refusing to accept me as the gender I feel I am, being stabbed and almost bled to death for a mobile phone in South Africa, raped by someone who turned out to be a serial killer.
The DWP jumped to soon while I am in the middle of this medical process, forced me to do a fit-for-work assessment. Still on ESA, but they changed the ESA from Support Group to Work related Activity group, where you are forced to do things, like answering the phone, doing interviews, or being forced to work with group of people you don't know. If you fail, they sanction you until you end up being forced homeless, or driven to suicide, something which i have done before. Monday I receive a call from them. I am afraid that I might miss the call when passed out, or I get the call and the way they talk to me would cause me to self harm or try suicide again. 

The DWP have been sending spies and stuff to harass me including pretending to be an extraterrestrial friend, so they can gather information, and use it to attack me. This has seriously effected my mental health, that I stay away from people.
Last week when I had been traumatised from the spying and ET friend impersonator on twitter, I was called to be examined by a GP by the DWP. I never seen this doctor before at the practice. A week later today I made an appointment with my actual GP. Arrived and found this GP there, as i was wanting to equire about my injections and also make an appointment to see a psychologist to get professional help. I broke down in corridor at the practice, and asked where my actual GP is, the one that regularly does my checkups, blood tests, and injections. They say he no longer in practice. I feel that he might be there still, and DWP forced the practice not to get help from my GP.
earlier this week, I got a letter that I need to go to another work capability assessment for my PIP, which i use for taxi fair to the Art Studio, as I cant walk the distance anymore with my broken backThey want to cut this to force me to be stuck living in my flat alone. Also the work activity groups they would force over to prevent me from going to the art studio,for slave labour.

I had to return home withe a new GP appointment with another GP whom I know has been at the practice from what I known and filled in when my original GP was on holiday leave.  that is on Wednesday after the time where i get that call from DWP is on Monday. 

I contacted the crisis team(suicide helpline), they suggested I contact DWP to tell them that I might pass out and miss the call, or that when they talk they could drive me to self harm or attempted suicide. I told them i cant, because I am afraid at the moment to talk to anyone from DWP i don't know. She said i must do, which caused me to fall, and lie on the ground, banging my head repeatedly on the kitchen cupboard until everything went black. My head is swollen and sore.

There is a chance that I might miss the call, from passing out and getting sanctioned, or answering the call, and the things they say might drive me to self harm again or attempt suicide. I tried to contact my GP today to set up appointment for psychologist. The GP not there anymore they say, I came home with no psychologist appointment and the fear of this doctor who did a DWP examination on me to give me injections.

I have no professional help, i know I would do it when they drive me to it, and i wont be able to stop myself.

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  This extraterrestrial says she is busy with the "exploration of humanity continuous for planetary advance"

An attempt to combine 2D with 3D art. Character & Cat drawn from scratch in Manga Studio/SuitTextures in Photoshop&CorelPhotoPaint, UFO created in Z Brush, Buildings created in 3Ds all imported into Vue. Reason to do background with 3D software was to speed up the work (Been having a lot of IRL shit happening to me, where my mental health has deteriorated), and improve accuracy. Background was pre-sceteched, and close to actual sketch.

There are Easter-eggs in the work.

Since this image is now posted on my website, I will show you some of these Easter eggs. I though I would include all these events as Easter eggs relating to the art  to reduce arguing about the subject of successive events in history due to the massive amount of uncertainty the stupid authorities of humanity have created to keep people ignorant and in the dark, that are all the same type of extraterrestrial and with similar spacecraft design.

http://www.zanaelf.org/01homepage.html

My life is stuck in a cycle of bullshit

Been stalling on my recent artwork, because of certain things are fucking up in actually getting shit done in moving on in life.
At the moment I have been considered mentally stable enough to qualify for surgery after focusing on getting the health prerequisites prepared for surgery, the DWP decided to jump ahead, instead of waiting for me to get the fucking surgery done, which would have been the logical outcome of my situation. But this stupid government has no logic, and everyone is a cash making machine to the system of the human stock farm called a country, and not treated like people of the planet.

I have PTSD that any stress would cause me to self harm, and my sole focus should be preparing for the surgery, not doing things that would affect my mental health in coping with day to day bullshit that people throw at me, which the work activity group would most likely do in making my mental health stability worse.
They moved me off Support Group ESA to Work Activity Group, where I would have expect to do things, and if i cant do them because of my problems.
This is very much almost the same as part f my reoccurring nightmare, where my surgery gets cancelled (Time condensed into a nightmare that is a few hours could be years.

..but Brexit and Trump has already happened. Its two minutes to midnight and WW3 is close even when the North Korean issue has been placed under ice, Nukes still exist... and there is 15000 of them on this planet aimed to different regions of the same planet. Like a dude with a thousand guns pointed to his own head.

If i have a breakdown like in 2011 , my surgery gets delayed another 5 to 10 years if I survive another attempted suicide, my body is already in bad condition because of it. When that day happens  it personally is an indicator when the mushroom clouds appear, 80:20 I survive and die from radiation poisoning in the arms of an extraterrestrial who rescues me after the war, because it wasn't safe to rescue me, with the space force now in place, or get vaporised with my silhouette plastered on the inside of a train, with a nuke detonating close outside near the railway line.

I am barely coping, and I am nervous and deteriorating under the stress and fear of the first interview, such as urinating and defecating in my sleep on rare occasions, passing out and fainting on the concrete flat floor, chipping a tooth or two, excessive vomiting after eating and fear of self harm from unwanted stress caused by discrimination, attempt of bulling by bigoted people on the street for just being born different, walking with difficulty because of a broken back and having to deal with stupid people who don't understand my situation face to face....

The extraterrestrial told me, they sorry they could not rescue me, because they were shot out of the sky and bailed death....and i in tears that they almost lost their own life to try and save mine.
There is nothing special about me, like they think I am, I am broken, and I am fucked I was probably that beautiful flower, but now just like a plant who had been under the tires of a bulldozer, that moved back and forth several times. The first was a month after I had been born with forced surgery to the gender of my parent's wishes and the so called fucking "will of god".

Pirate Galleon Ship

Based on the digital work I had done as a reference
Done with acrylics, metallic acrylic paint and glitter paint.. It has effects with light shining on it at different angles.
I decided to leave the idea of a sea monster out... would needed more time to do it, since this piece had a due date.

Galleon Pirate Ship

Finished The digital work and start painting in Acrylic, as no time to do it in oils, because of the speed oils dry is to slow.

Because Gravity Sucks

Oil Paints on Canvas Because, Gravity Sux.. is based on, is about a bunch of space elves having a sensual moment in the centre of their cylindrical space station. Elements are textured in a way they can be felt as seen by running your fingers across the painting.

The Calm Before The Storm

The Calm Before The Storm, the title of the oil painting I had worked from the digital piece I created for the Tall Ships event in Sunderland.

Tall Ship

Done the digital piece which I am going to paint on canvas with oil paint for the Sunderland Art Studio who would be exhibiting work for the Tall Ships Event in Sunderland.
I thought of doing a stormy sea in the evening, with a UFO(Maya-Mac)) in the clouds. Scene (Clouds and Sea)Created in Vue(Mac), Ship Model Created in 3D Studio(Windows) and Mermaid Figurehead attached in Poser(Mac), and final render completed in Vue(Hackintosh), and touch-ups and post editing done in Photoshop(Mac) and Corel Paint Shop Pro(Windows).